Are you happy?

I sometimes ask myself this question...and very often, am blown away by the power of it. Just a simple 3 words-sentence question, a sentence that a 3 year old could have asked, and answered honestly...most of us, would hesitate to answer it with much thought. In the first place, how do you define happiness? How, do you measure happiness? How, can you then consider yourself happy? Just like the word "sorry" and "thank you", we use it so often that they actually lost their original meaning. Most of the time, we say them without much thought or worse, intention.

It's just funny sometimes when I told myself that I am happy, there's this nagging voice in my head that bounces back, "Am I really happy?", that's where I stopped to confront myself again. Because I guess, I really don't know how to measure my own happiness, and what exactly can happiness carry. Where does happiness start, and where it ends? To say I am unhappy made me feel like a selfish person, who am I to quote that when my life is so much better compared to thousands out there who might not even have shelther across their head? To say I am happy, I feel like I am cheating my own feelings because very often, when I thought of my family problem, my mom, my dogs at home who're going through a lot without my care, I tear.

So..hey, are you happy?

It shall all be over..soon.

Year 2006 has finally started to wrap up, I can't wait for it to be over..hoping that the start of a new year signifies an end to my many dramas. I look back and was surprised how fast time flies, another year is gone. And I was amazed at the rate my life has changed too, in merely short 12 months.

Hmm..I feel like I've been in the weeding process recently, getting ready for a brand new year, I weed and pluck out unneccessary things and people from my life and at the dawn of new year, I shall have a brand new garden.

The battle is finally over. The battle of Uni studies and good grades, the battle of my relationship, and the battle of loneliness, depression and stress. University results are out, I am done with my undergraduate and I want to move up to a higher degree. My hard work has finally paid off. My relationship has became a past that I no longer associate with, I have cut links and ties - anything and anyone that's related to my past. No one who's related with my ex knows exactly where I am or what's going on in my life now. I moved out of from the house and found a new home for myself, I have a job which I love and newfound social life with stunning individuals around me - those that allows me to look past my past and move on to a brighter future.

I've survived a dark past, ran away from it and start a brand-new me with a blank canvas to work on.

Child of fury

I've been feeling very angry with the world. I don't know about what though.

Have you ever felt this way...?