Lame-o

You know what kind of person I really dislike? Those that ask me to guess who they are.

Few days ago, someone requested me to add him on Msn. I looked at the person's nickname and email address and had no clue who it was, but I thought it'd be nice if I add him first then try to find out - which I did. When I chatted with him, he told me I would have to guess. This isn't the first time I came across such incident. But this is worse than any other cases because before I know it, before this idiot even told me who he was, he proceeded in flirting and sweet talking.

...Excuse me, what makes you think that I was keen to guess who the hell you are?!

I mean obviously I don't care! I have better things to do. If he doesn't want me to know then in the first place he really shouldn't have take the initiative to add me to his list, am I right? Now that I accepted his request and he told me to guess who he is? Am I under some kind of order to satisfy his requests or am I living in a world where a 22 year old is only allowed to talk and behave like a 7 year old kid? Hello, why don't we play some game? Why don't you guess who I am? I'll give you some clue, I have 2 eyes, 2 ears, a nose and a mouth on my face. Oohhh how exciting! Seriously - fuck off. I don't see any fun in this. Either you act accordingly to your age, if you want me to know who you are then tell me otherwise don't come to me and ask me to guess. And seriously - the world doesn't revolve around you, don't expect people to live their lives waiting for you to come about and guess who the hell you are and expect the person to give the correct answer. It's lame, it's pathetic, it's shallow and I don't think you suit to be my friend.

So anyway, eventually I found out who the lame-o was. I blocked him and deleted him from my list - it disgusts me to have such person on my friend list, really. I don't think he's qualified at all, he needs to brush up his social skills.

Monkey see, Monkey do.

People often say, there's no place like home.
After spending almost 5 years oversea, I can't even comprehend how I've lived the past 15 years or so of my life, in the type of society which I wouldn't choose to live in now. For at least 15 years, I've called this place, this society and community my home.

After a week or so back from Perth, I woke up one morning to a big, highlighted head line on the first page of the local daily newspaper about a local primary school kid who committed suicide. My eyes darted through the piece of detailed information. Needless to say, I was dumbfounded and upset. Truth to be told, not about the kid but about how local newspaper reported it. I read it word by word and somehow got pretty furious with it, as I flipped back and forth now for any information where I can lodge a complain.


Why?..Because suicide is contagious!! This is a scientifically proven and well-researched area by many psychologists. Hence, reporting a suicide case to the mass community is a big no-no. Needless to say, about a primary school kid who did it for the sake of financial problems which is partially caused by the school. I am concerned about thousands of other school kids outside who's facing the same problem as the victim who happened to read the news, the state of their young minds to follow or be influenced by the norm and the norm is what the media portray it as (!). To some individual this may well be a new information, but to all well-educated and well-read staffs working in a media press, or in the government department concerning with the media or any related areas, it is no longer an unfamiliar information. How do we even call ourselves a growing and improving country when even a small matter like the media press is not even well controlled and informed? Most countries have banned the act of reporting any case of suicides in newspapers for a good reason.

Then, came the thought that, is the media being not well enough informed or it's another case of ignorance. The media tends to portray things that can catch most people's attention - for the sake of their earning. Anyway, either way, it's a huge disappointment.

No wonder there's a huge focus on double degree of Mass Comm. together with Psychology in Canada and the States. When one is doing a mass communication with the community and the society, to be sensitive and well-educated about humans' state of mind is indeed extremely important..indeed doing the right thing is essential.

Instead of being overconcerned about what the media will report about the ugly side of the government, or putting extra effort to ban news that are against this government, why don't they turn around now and put that extra effort to control what's bad for the society?

Mental checklist, anyone?

I'm not sure if you do, I walk around everyday with a little something to look forward to. I don't know if this has became my individual habit, but it's true that I live my life like a checklist, and my list is one with all the things that I look forward to - let is be something as small as eating breakfast with family to something average like getting a new pair of glasses to something rather exciting like going to a massive party. It feels awesome having to know that I have a few big things on my list, and everytime when one is done, I'll check on my mental checklist - pass, what's next? Sometimes I think I am quite easily satisfied, which is rather a good thing. Bottom line is, I'm always making an effort to look forward to things or events because it keeps me going. What's more healthy than trying to keep yourself hopeful!

Do you do the same thing, too?

Home or not home.

I felt weary a week ago when I was about to leave Perth for..Malaysia. Sometimes I am amazed by the power of our subconscious mind because very often nowadays, I hesitate when I was to say the word "home" or "father" or "family" in the conversation of me and my friends. It gets to me a lot if I were to say those words because I’ve crossed them out in my daily dictionary. My consciousness has pushed away the senses so much since my mom broke the news about my dad to me few months back. I’ve pushed away my feelings and not allowed myself to come to face the reality or pain hence eventually, those words and understandings have disappeared from my senses, too.

So yea, I guess I can say that I am back..in Malaysia, not home - or at least not how I define it.

No, this isn't home.