Not just an ordinary day

Yesterday wasn't any ordinary day. Last night, I shocked myself with what I'm capable of. Something inside me snapped and my heart turned so cold I could somewhat taste it in my mouth. It's the stage when I've passed mourning and hurt, the tears dried up and suddenly my guards are up. Or rather...finally they are up. I was affected by no guilt, no remorse, no hurt, no pain, no fear. I felt just cold.

At this stage, I felt like I've exhausted my limits. Something feels different, out of the ordinary. I suddenly can't find tears, or weakness or even feelings. I can't find the emotions that I usually identify myself with. I am not sure where is this feeling taking me to and I don't seem to be fighting that even..